MereChristianity: 4. The Perfect Penitent -C.S.Lewis

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4. The Perfect Penitent

 

     We are faced, then, with  a  frightening alternative. This  man  we are

talking  about either  was (and  is) just what He said or else a lunatic, or

something worse. Now it seems to me  obvious  that He was neither a  lunatic

nor a fiend:  and consequently, however strange or terrifying or unlikely it

may seem, I have  to accept the view  that He was and is God. God has landed

on this enemy-occupied world in human form.


     And now, what was the purpose of  it all? What did He come to do? Well,

to teach, of  course; but as soon as you look into the  New Testament or any

other  Christian writing  you  will  find they are constantly  talking about

something different-about  His  death and  His coming  to life  again. It is

obvious  that  Christians think the chief point of the story lies here. They

think the main thing He came to earth to do was to suffer and be killed.


     Now before  I  became a Christian I was  under  the impression that the

first thing Christians had  to believe was one particular theory as  to what

the point of this  dying was. According to that  theory God wanted to punish

men for having  deserted and  joined the Great Rebel, but Christ volunteered

to be punished instead, and so  God let us off.  Now  I admit that even this

theory  does not seem to me quite so immoral and so silly as it used to; but

that is not the point  I want  to make. What I came to see later on was that

neither  this theory  nor any  other  is Christianity. The central Christian

belief is that Christ's death has somehow put us right with God and given us

a fresh start Theories as to how it did this are another matter. A good many

different theories have  been held as to  how it  works; what all Christians

are agreed on is that it does work. I will tell you what I think it is like.


All sensible people know that if you are tired and hungry a meal will do you

good. But  the  modern theory  of  nourishment-all  about  the  vitamins and

proteins-is a different thing. People ate their dinners and felt better long

before  the theory  of  vitamins was ever  heard of:  and  if the  theory of

vitamins is some day abandoned they will go on eating their dinners just the

same.  Theories  about   Christ's  death  are  not  Christianity:  they  are

explanations  about how it works.  Christians would not all agree as  to how

important these theories  are. My own  church-the Church of England-does not

lay down any one of  them as  the right one.  The Church  of Rome goes a bit

further. But I think they will all agree that the thing itself is infinitely

more important than any explanations that theologians have produced. I think

they would probably admit that no explanation will ever be quite adequate to

the reality. But as I said in the preface  to this book, I am only a layman,

and at  this point we are getting into  deep water. I can only tell you, for

what it is worth, how I, personally, look at the matter.


     On  my view the theories are not themselves the thing  you are asked to

accept. Many of you no doubt have read Jeans or Eddington. What they do when

they want to explain the atom,  or something of that sort, is  to give you a

description  out of which you can make a mental picture. But then  they warn

you that this picture is  not what the scientists actually believe. What the

scientists believe is a mathematical formula. The pictures are there only to

help you to understand the formula. They are not  really true in the way the

formula is; they  do not give you the real thing but only something more  or

less like it. They are  only meant to help, and if they do  not help you can

drop them. The thing itself  cannot  be pictured, it  can only  be expressed

mathematically. We are in  the same boat here. We believe that the  death of

Christ  is  just  that  point  in  history  at  which  something  absolutely

unimaginable from outside shows through into our own world. And if we cannot

picture even the atoms of which our own world is built, of course we are not

going to be able to picture this. Indeed, if  we  found that  we could fully

understand  it,  that  very fact would show it was not what it professes  to

be-the inconceivable, the uncreated, the thing from  beyond nature, striking

down into nature  like lightning. You  may ask what good will it be to us if

we  do not understand  it.  But that  is easily answered. A man  can eat his

dinner without  understanding  exactly  how  food  nourishes  him. A man can

accept what  Christ  has  done without  knowing  how  it  works: indeed,  he

certainly would not know how it works until he has accepted it.


     We  are told that Christ was  killed for us, that His death  has washed

out  our sins,  and  that by  dying  He  disabled  death itself. That is the

formula. That is Christianity. That is what has to be believed. Any theories

we build up as  to how  Christ's death did all  this are, in my view,  quite

secondary: mere  plans or diagrams to  be left alone if they do not help us,

and, even if they do help us, not to  be confused with the thing itself. All

the same, some of these theories are worth looking at.


     The one most people have  heard is the one I mentioned before -the  one

about our being let  off because Christ had volunteered to bear a punishment

instead of us. Now on the face of it that is a very silly theory. If God was

prepared  to  let us off,  why on earth did He not do so? And what  possible

point  could there be  in punishing an innocent person instead? None  at all

that I can see, if you are thinking of punishment in the police-court sense.

On  the other hand, if you think  of a debt,  there is plenty of  point in a

person who has some assets paying it on behalf of someone who has not. Or if

you take "paying the penalty," not in the  sense of  being punished, but  in

the more general sense of "standing the racket" or "footing the bill," then,

of course, it is a matter of common experience that, when one person has got

himself into a  hole, the trouble of getting him out usually falls on a kind

friend. Now what  was the sort  of "hole" man had  got  himself into? He had

tried to set up on his own, to behave as if he belonged to himself. In other

words, fallen man is not simply an imperfect creature who needs improvement:

he  is  a  rebel  who  must lay  down  his  arms.  Laying  down  your  arms,

surrendering, saying you  are  sorry,  realising  that you have  been on the

wrong track  and  getting ready to  start  life  over again from the  ground

floor-that is the only  way out of a  "hole." This process of surrender-this

movement  full  speed  astern-is   what   Christians  call  repentance.  Now

repentance is  no fun at all. It is something much harder than merely eating

humble  pie. It means unlearning  all the self-conceit and self-will that we

have been training ourselves into for thousands  of years. It means  killing

part of yourself, undergoing a kind of death. In fact, it needs  a good  man

to repent. And here comes the catch. Only a bad person needs to repent: only

a good person  can repent perfectly.  The worse you are the more you need it

and the less you can  do it. The only person who could do it perfectly would

be a perfect person-and he would not need it.


     Remember, this repentance, this willing submission to humiliation and a

kind  of death, is not something God demands of you  before He will take you

back and which He could let  you off if He chose: it is simply a description

of what going back to Him is  like. If you ask God to take you  back without

it, you are really  asking  Him  to let you go  back without going back.  It

cannot hap pen. Very well,  then,  we  must go through with it. But the same

badness which makes us need  it, makes us unable to do it. Can we  do it  if

God helps us? Yes, but what do we mean  when  we talk of God helping us?  We

mean God putting into us a bit of Himself, so to speak. He lends us a little

of His reasoning powers and that  is how we think: He puts  a little  of His

love  into  us and that is how  we  love one another. When you teach a child

writing, you hold its hand while it forms the letters: that is, it forms the

letters  because you are forming them. We love  and reason because God loves

and  reasons and holds  our hand while we  do it.  Now if we had not fallen,

that would be all plain sailing. But unfortunately we now need God's help in

order to do  something which God, in His own  nature,  never does  at all-to

surrender, to suffer, to submit, to die. Nothing in God's nature corresponds

to this  process at  all.  So that the one road for  which we now need God's

leadership most of  all is a  road God, in His own nature, has never walked.

God can share only what He has: this thing, in His own nature, He has not.


     But supposing God became  a  man-suppose  our  human  nature which  can

suffer and  die  was amalgamated  with God's  nature in one person-then that

person  could help us. He could surrender  His  will, and  suffer  and  die,

because He was man; and He could do it perfectly because He was God. You and

I can go through this process only if  God does it in us; but  God can do it

only if He becomes  man. Our attempts at this dying  will succeed only if we

men  share in God's dying, just as our thinking can  succeed only because it

is a drop out of  the ocean of His  intelligence: but we cannot share  God's

dying unless God dies; and He cannot die  except by being a man. That is the

sense in which He pays our debt, and suffers for us what He Himself need not

suffer at all.


     I have heard some people complain that if Jesus was God as well as man,

then His sufferings and death lose all value in their eyes, "because it must

have been so easy for him." Others may (very rightly) rebuke the ingratitude

and   ungraciousness   of   this   objection;  what   staggers   me  is  the

misunderstanding it betrays. In one sense, of  course, those who make it are

right.  They  have even understated their own  case. The perfect submission,

the  perfect  suffering, the perfect  death  were not  only  easier to Jesus

because He was God,  but were  possible only because He  was God. But surely

that is  a very odd reason for not  accepting them?  The  teacher is able to

form the letters for the child because the teacher is grown-up and knows how

to write. That, of course, makes it easier for the teacher, and only because

it is easier for him can he help the child. If it rejected him because "it's

easy for grown-ups" and waited to learn writing from another child who could

not write  itself (and so  had  no "unfair" advantage), it would not get  on

very  quickly. If I am  drowning in a rapid  river,  a man who still has one

foot on the bank may give me  a hand which saves my  life. Ought  I to shout

back  (between my gasps) "No, it's not  fair! You have  an advantage! You're

keeping one  foot  on  the bank"? That  advantage-call  it "unfair"  if  you

like-is the  only reason  why  he can be of any use to me. To what  will you

look for help if you will not look to that which is stronger than yourself?


     Such  is my own way of looking at  what Christians call the  Atonement.

But remember this is only one more picture. Do not  mistake it for the thing

itself: and if it does not help you, drop it